#a lot of them are based on interactions they had

[innuendostudios]

regarding Measurehead

I've been watching a max-stats run of Disco Elysium's fascist political vision quest - cuz, hell no, I'm not disappointing Kim myself - and the portrait it paints of Measurehead is fascinating. in the base game, Measurehead is just a comically contradictory roadblock to meeting with Evrart: the philosophy of white supremacy spouted from a massive Black body. most players will interact with him early in the game, usually in close proximity to meeting The Cuno, and he's part of what makes the early game seem so unreprentantly edgelord. the kid said the f-slur! the Black guy is a racist! har har!

I've never loved that this is the foot Disco puts forward first, but, on deeper engagement, the game always has more on its mind.

properly speaking, Measurehead is, at his core, a genuinely good and kind man. he gives Harry good advice about not living in the past; he loves and adores his mother; he has an unhealthy respect for his hard and distant father but recognizes he learned strength and self-respect from him, while nevertheless refusing to repeat the cycle of abuse; indeed, he recognizes the balance he feels in himself, the mix of masculine and feminine, of soft and hard, was only possible because his parents lacked that balance in themselves, that his father saw the loving softness of Measurehead's mother and pivoted to its opposite, denying himself softness and embracing the rigid and cold so that Measurehead could experience both; Measurehead has chosen not to have children perhaps because he knows he could not retain this perfect balance, would have to follow his father's example and embrace only one side of himself to provide balance to a child; and he knows this self-possessedness, this full knowledge of who he is, is what makes him appealing to women, far more than his physique or philosophy; and, by all accounts, he eats pussy like it's going out of style.

what makes Measurehead such a batshit character is how he has to contort his philosophies to make room for this, how malleable fascism and race supremacy ultimately are. he can't just not want kids cuz he doesn't want to repeat daddy's patterns, he has to embrace a philosophy of "semen retention" and deny himself orgasm, and he fits that with race supremacy by insisting the real legacy is perpetuating ideas rather than flesh. he can valorize his devotion to his mother and the sexual consideration he pays his partners by insisting this makes him desirable to women and is how he outcompetes lesser men. the philosophy of "balance of soft and hard" is how he can exalt his father as a masculine ideal while still distancing himself from his father's abusive behavior.

one could argue these are all perversions of fascist rhetoric, if fascism had any coherent rhetoric to begin with. Measurehead has grasped the nonsensical nature of race science and authoritarian logic and put them to his own ends, and, being a giant specimen of a man, he can more or less get away with it.

I don't write this as a defense of Measurehead, because, of course, he is spreading a fascist rhetoric that encourages all kinds of violence and bigotry in the world, and a man who is good and kind in the privacy of his mother's office but is a champion of subjugation when in public - especially when he is, in his bizarre way, a true believer - is no kind of decent. but I see it as a look into the utter emptiness of fascist thought.

the four emissaries of fascism we meet on the vision quest - Gary, Rene, the racist lorry driver, and Measurehead - speak a lot of the same words but, at their core, have nothing in common. they have all latched on to the rhetoric and bent it to different ends - Rene yearns for the monarchy, Gary wants a pat on the head, the lorry driver is an incel, and Measurehead is trying to self-actualize within the confines of hypermasculinity. the only rhetoric that can encompass all four is one without substance, one of infinite flexibility, that offers nothing more than the promise that you will get everything you want, and that directs your rage at something other than yourself.

in that respect, despite being perhaps the most emotionally healthy person in the game, I find Measurehead pitiable.

[puppysuke]

hi hi hi hi hi hi hello howdy <333 I never send in asks (or interact with anyone on Tumblr for that matter) but I just AAAHHH I love your headcanons!! I think Daisuke x reader headcanons pre-relationship would be so cute... Like the confession and the mutual pining and everything omg. You don't have to do it at all, if you did that would be fantastic but no worries, um okay bye 😍😍

eats a brick and leaves on a fly ride adopt me unicorn

i am honored that you asked me for this! hopefully you like this a lot. i'll just do hc since thats what you asked, BUT if you want to req a oneshot based on this, i would love that tons and tons. i'd be happy to write that! also don't eat bricks, ok, not good for you silly. all sfw! can be read after the events of mouthwashing or a different au! if you'd like something like this in mouthwashing au, like in the tulpar and stuff, i'll write that too :3 but i guess this can be read like that too for the most part. thank you, anon, let me get you a nice muffin or something you'd like. continue reading under the cut! art by ImaHealthHazard on pinterest!

🌺 --- daisuke didn't exactly expect to fall in love with you. he really just thought you were a really good friend! 🌺 --- that was until you brought him a brownie that you had gotten from the store, knowing he had a huge sweet tooth. 🌺 --- when you gave him the brownie, he KNEW he was in love. he had tried to deny it to himself, but he couldn't anymore. 🌺 --- he didn't realize that you felt the same way for him. he thought you were just trying to be a good friend.

🌺 ---he felt like a TOTAL creep for liking you. he caught himself staring at you or daydreaming about you.

🌺 --- you were super obvious about liking him too, he just didn't realize that.

🌺 --- like the time you told him you wish you had a boyfriend like him? yeah, he thought he was just deluding himself into thinking you meant anything by it.

🌺 --- he tried to not be obvious about his feelings. he felt very guilty about it! so i tried to hide it. but he wasn't very good at it.

🌺 --- mutual friends of yours said things like "just date already!" and "so when are you guys getting together?"

🌺 --- and daisuke would panic and be like "ew why would i wanna date them???"

🌺 --- it hurt you a bit, but you didn't show it! you just went along with it.

🌺 --- you guys both were talking to your mutual friends about liking each other, so they all knew about it!

🌺 --- everyone knew but you and daisuke. even his mom had called you his girlfriend a few times...

🌺 --- you guys pined over each other for MONTHS. you fell first, but he fell WAY harder.

🌺 --- finally, the guilt got to daisuke and he decided to confess. he mainly just expected you to reject him and he figured that'd help him move on.

🌺 --- he came to you a sobbing mess after having a drink or two. he had walked to your house at 2 in the morning.

🌺 --- you let him in and sat with him, trying to comfort him, but he refused to tell you what was wrong for a good while.

🌺 --- after he finally got a hold on himself and stopped crying, he got a few words out.

🌺 --- "i need to tell you that i-" daisuke sniffled and there he went crying again.

🌺 --- you frowned and coaxed the answer out of him. "i like you! so much and i feel so bad, i'm so sorry!"

🌺 --- you just stared at him for a minute and let out a little laughed, ruffling his hair. he stared at you with big eyes and his bottom lip jutted out in a pout.

🌺 --- you very quickly told him you liked him too. he then proceeded to go on and on about how he meant he was in love with you kinda like.

🌺 --- you had to assure him you understood and felt the same. he kinda felt stupid after that.

🌺 --- "oh." daisuke wiped his tears and cleared his throat. "well! this is embarrasing."

🌺 --- needless to say, you got together not to long after that.

🌺 --- your friend group was very relieved they didn't have to listen to you two go on and on to them about eachother.

🌺 ---till they realized they needed to see you two being way too lovey dovey infront of them.

🌺 --- "wait, daisuke came to you crying?" swansea asked, sure to tease him about that for a while.

🌺 --- daisuke would brush it off and claim it made him more 'desirable' and protest he was just in tune with him feminine side!

🌺 --- also i just wanted to add this man makes you playlists 24/7. like you don't even get a chance to listen to your music because he is constantly making you playlists, it's his love language. so naturally your taste in music morphs into his.

i hope you enjoyed! if you liked this and have anything you'd like me to write from this fandom, or any other fandoms listen in my intro post, my requests are open! just ask me in my inbox and i'll write / make hc for you <3 thank you for reading!

[justalittleb-witchy]

Apologies if this question was rhetorical, but I’d like to try to help if it was not

The gods will not abandon you, they are very forgiving. I am sure that your love and intentions are felt. I can not begin to communicate how not-alone you are, how common this fear is, how many practitioners before you have had the same struggles. Caring for yourself is an act of worship. Knowing yourself, your wants, your needs, is living with the gods in mind. They don’t expect you to push yourself to the point of breaking, they’d want you to take care of yourself and do as you must. They want your betterment, and that starts with understanding and kindness to oneself.

A lot of people have this idealized version of devotion in their minds. This ritualized worship, that has to be done by routine—but it doesn’t have to be that way. Chaotic, sporadic worship is just as legitimate, if that’s what you can give/is what’s best for you. And a relationship isn’t only about giving; don’t define it based off of what you can give, because you will (unfairly and cruelly to yourself) find yourself lacking. If you define yourself by what you can and cannot offer, it can damage your self-image and feelings about self worth. Think about how many people come to objectify themselves and only find their worth in service by thinking of themselves in this way. You don’t have to be able to give to be worthy. You just have to be. To exist. That’s what makes you worthy. I know it’s hard to keep this mindset, but self-love and self-appreciation is an ongoing journey for everyone, and it meets you where you’re at. Keep trying, and you’ll get farther and better than you ever imagined.

Take smaller steps. Do what you can. The fastest route to burnout is giving what you cannot give, what you do not have the energy to give.

Something small that I do is that I have certain clothes colors dedicated to specific deities I worship. Whether or not I have the energy to set an intention on a specific day, or the ability to hold them in my mind, those clothes are Their clothes, for lack of better phrasing. Wearing it is an act of offering, one I don’t have to consciously choose each time I put it on.

I have other aspects of my routine, of things I have to do, dedicated to the gods. I don’t think of Lady Aphrodite every time I wash my face, but it is an act I’ve dedicated to her. It’s an act I do in honor of her, and because I need to. I keep small items, in her image, near the stuff I use to get ready every day. In that way, I’ve incorporated her into my routine. I may not remember to do specific things every day, such as wear a cologne dedicated to her— truth is, my brain is scrambled enough that I rarely am able to remember. But that doesn’t make my worship, my practice, my devotion, or my love less legitimate.

Per research, it may be helpful to look into “low spoon” devotional activities. People make lists regarding that, usually centered around their specific disabilities.

Another thing I do is seek out and interact with content about the gods, because it brings me joy and keeps them in my mind. I enjoy seeing other’s acts of worship. This, to me, is also an act of devotion, because I am expressing my love for them, my willingness and desire to learn about them.

Living in their image is also worship. Being kind, being loving, being bold— whatever their image means to you.

And remember, the gods are gods— they have many disabled devotees. You’re not the first or the last person they’ve adored that has been like you. They understand, they are forgiving— even though there is nothing to forgive. This isn’t something you’d need to ask for forgiveness over— the challenge can be forgiving yourself even when you’ve done nothing wrong, but your guilt infests you anyways.

They love, they understand— and they are willing to help. Don’t be afraid to ask for help, for guidance, for suggestions, directly from them. It’s not always easy to “hear” and understand what they’re saying, but they may help in loud or subtle ways. Sometimes it just takes a while to hear or understand their voice. I’ve received signs before where I didn’t understand what it meant until years down the line— there’s no pressure to understand things, to see things, right away. Even if you can’t feel them, they are there. Even if they are quiet, they are there. Even when you’re busy, they are there. In your corner, supporting you, loving you, understanding you. They are there for you.

Some links (I haven’t used tumblr in a while so please let me know if they don’t work right):

https://www.tumblr.com/justalittleb-witchy/773785059996106752

https://www.tumblr.com/justalittleb-witchy/773602837241495552

https://www.tumblr.com/sunkissedchai/770826598357336064/seeing-this-the-day-after-i-was-told-this-it-is

https://www.tumblr.com/wingsofaphrodite/770337613899022336/low-spoons-devotion-ideas

https://www.tumblr.com/justalittleb-witchy/770790046687199232/devotional-actions-as-offerings

https://www.tumblr.com/justalittleb-witchy/770698822744719360/fear-of-punishment-and-fear-of-angering-the-gods

How does someone with adhd + executive dysfunction practice their worship?

I've been unable to light Their candles nor properly talk or offer things to Them (other than the stray "hello my Lord/Lady [Name]" and lighting Their incenses) and I walk past Their altar every day and I feel so weak and I don't want to feel like They are just a stray thought or a passing hyperfixation.

I know I can't control my mental obstacles, but it's hard to overcome them or get around them. I'm trying so hard to live, let alone breathe. I keep Them in my mind and my heart every day, but is it enough? Am I okay?

I love you, Lord Apollo ☀️

I love you, Lord Ares ⚔️

I love you, Lady Artemis 🏹

I love you, Lady Aphrodite and Lovely Eros 💕 💘

I've not abandoned You. I can only hope You've not abandoned me.

[vampire-wizard-solidarity]

this is a public service announcement to all revali fans: i invite you to join my campaign for the belief that mipha and revali are like, besties. there is no textual evidence to support this however i would like to dedicate the rest of this post to basically form a manifesto for this dynamic.

first it's important to acknowledge that botw and all champion related materials are kind of underbaked and don't elaborate on possibly any idea related to the champions enough to create Analyzable Depth, so when talking about these characters there's always an element of identifying either potential/setup for these characters and kind of trying to extend this. engaging with these characters kind of inherently means doing, in at least some part, the job of the writer and low key Making Shit Up. i acknowledge this and also embrace it and i suggest you do too.

so, mipha and revali: they are low key parallels, or at least play parallel roles to each other. the champions could be 'divided' into whether they relate more to zelda or link, and coincidentally link gets the boys and zelda gets the girls. daruk and urbosa are the older figures who take on a low key parental role to link and zelda respectively. daruk hangs out with link and gets him to loosen up a bit (source: his dlc diary) and urbosa is the one who cares for zelda and understands her deal the most (source: every single time urbosa is on screen). revali and mipha are, then, the peer character meant to 'challenge' link and zelda respectively.

revali challenges link's status as 'the chosen one', whether he really deserves this title and status etc by being the only champion with no inherent authority who had to work his ass off for any status he does have. mipha challenges zelda's role as a princess, by being also a princess with special powers who's practically perfect at everything zelda sucks at (being good at her power, getting along with link, having a loving family, having her people have complete faith in her, being mourned extensively after her death etc). revali and mipha further foil each other: revali is the most Outraged by the entire situation, whereas mipha is the most complacent. revali bases a lot of his beliefs about the situation largely on misunderstanding and projection, whereas mipha possibly has the most understanding about everything (about her entire role in this, about how special princess powers work, about link and generally the people involved). having these two characters interact and like, talk about things is inherently an interesting concept because of this.

furthermore, i believe they could bring out sides in each other that are largely unseen in most contexts. mipha is generally quite passive and quiet, despite having the most understanding she doesn't proactively voice it nor tries to actively 'enlighten' anyone. the one time she does try the apocalypse happens and even then she isn't like 'ok we are on borrowed time zelda lets debrief u need to unlock ur powers stat' shes just kind of like oh ok. guess the Very Important Conversation That Could Solve Everything has to wait. revali, on the other hand, doesn't shut the fuck up, and never even considers that he's wrong or working off of wrong premises. despite this, both of them have sides to them that are not like this: revali acts like a pompous asshole, but from his dlc scene and journal we can infer he has a bunch of underlying insecurities and also does Genuinely Care. and mipha, again from her dlc scene, has some older sister snark that comes out when she interacts with sidon, she's actually willing to be proactive with him and not overly coddle him.

with mipha's whole thing as the understander i think she'd be able to catch onto revali's shit almost immediately and see through his facade. at the same time she's not the type of character to actively try and fix him, i actually think she'd express her understanding in a kind of cheeky, snarky way, 'match his energy' so to speak, because she knows that's something that would actually ruffle some feathers (heh) and get revali out of his comfort zone. for revali, on the other hand, i think it'd be a very disarming experience to be actually called on his bullshit by a peer who seems to actually get him and not buy his whole pompous asshole thing. i also think he'd kind of project his own feelings of being upstaged by Some Guy onto mipha, an actually competent princess who also has to step back just because she's from the wrong royal family. their kind of opposite personalities and perspectives are able to complement each other, coming together to a perfect equilibrium of 'yes there are things that are very unfair about this but there are reasons for the way things are and we kind of have to accept that'. it is kind of beneficial for both of them to hear about/engage with the others' perspective.

a quick aside bc i know a bunch of you are revalink fans: the dynamic of revali and link one sided rivalry meanwhile mipha is great friends with both of them is really funny, and also opens a door for revali to develop a better understanding of link and give him a chance. i don't go here i am a miphzel girlie however this is something to consider.

now: would they actually like each other? the answer for mipha is simple because like, i think she just kind of likes everyone. for revali it's a little more interesting and i think it's important to bring up the way he views zelda: he talks about it in his diary, but basically there is an element of him looking down on her there's also a distinct sense of pity ("It's not that I dislike the Princess. She tries her hardest. It's simply not good enough"). there are a few reasons for why there's a pity present where it is not for link, part of it is pretty much explicitly stated with how he views zelda as earnest meanwhile link as emotionless. i, being me, read botw as a very deliberately gendered story and will assert that in my reading, part of the reason why he has a distinct rivalry with link and does not with zelda is because link is also male.

part of it is because the roles of the hero and the princess are inherently gendered, and revali wants the role of the hero, the role he thinks is being taken away from him. he understands the role of the hero as the main fighter, which is what he wants to be, and he doesn't have the same interest in whatever role the princess plays in defeating ganon. part of it is the fact that revali is a teenage boy, and link is also a teenage boy. the way he provokes him and tries to enter an adversarial relationship with him reads to me as like, the kind of bickering you do with specifically a peer you view as a challenger, in this case the role they're both aiming for is the 'knight', in the case of link literally, and in the case of revali more symbolically, as the top archer and 'protector' of his village.

now this is where we veer off into the 'Making Shit Up' part of analyzing botw champions, namely there's a lot of interpretations one could come up with using the implications of this aspect of his character, to name a few: he potentially does still hold a kind of respect for the authority of royalty, namely princesses; he is a feminist; my personal favorite: he has some aspects of toxic masculinity making him pursue rivalry with other men, while not viewing women as rivals in the same way. either way, one think is clear: he doesn't react to princesses with the same antagonism he does to knights.

so, what we have here: he values 1. competence 2. sincerity 3. people who cannot rival him for his status or any status he wants. mipha checks all three.

furthermore, now that we have established that revali is a kind of 'knight', and mipha is a princess, and they both foil link and zelda respectively, they are, like link and zelda, a knight and princess pair, ergo their potential friendship is in itself a foil to link and zelda. with link and zelda, we have a very complacent, passive knight and a princess with a propensity for projection who is very vocally not happy with the situation. and with revali and mipha, we have a knight with a propensity for projection who is very vocally not happy with the situation and a very complacent, passive princess. the first pair's dynamic leads to conflict between the two of them, and who survive despite their incompetence. the second pair's dynamic, in my pitch, leads to closeness and friendship, and who die despite their competence. Are You Seeing This.

so yeah. i have mostly focused on their synergy and narrative foilage instead of the specifics of their potential dynamic, although i do have opinions on that too, however i have omitted those largely bc of what i have discussed in paragraph one. this is not a pitch for you to subscribe to my personal interpretations of these character's personalities, it is a pitch for you to make them interact. more.

TL;DR: the potential dynamic between revali and mipha is scrumptious because they're literally foils to each other and to link and zelda and we should all be exploring it more

[beautiful-basque-country]

I actually have a bit of a... charged question. How has the Basque country interacted with the Romani population over the years/how is it currently?

Kaixo anon!

Yes indeed, that's a charged question that will need a lengthy answer.

The short version for the ones not willing to read this whole post, EH treated Roma people basically the same way Spain or France did: BAD.

The first reference we have about Roma people in EH is a document from 1435 where a group of them arrived to Nafarroa from Aragón. The leader of this group presented himself as a "Count of Egypt", and that's why we call them ijitoak in Basque, a word that comes from egiptokoak or "the Egyptians".

Although the kingdom of Nafarroa set no rules against Roma people, after the conquest by the kingdom of Castile this changed and the situation of these people began deteriorating from the 16th century on. The reasons for the ever present prejudice against Roma people may be several: their nomadic lifestyle, not being Catholic, being oftentimes accused of theft, etc.

There were a lot of laws passed throughout the centuries like Roma people would be expelled if they didn't dress or speak as the rest of their neighbors, they couldn't live in towns of 1,000 inhabitants or less, they would be expelled of the towns if they didn't have a proper profession, they couldn't be hosted in barns (of course nobody wanted to host them at home, but it was common practice to let them the barns to sleep the night until this law), etc.

There were two big mass detentions of Roma people, one in Spain in the 18th century and the other in France in the early 19th century. Around, 9,000 Roma were caught in Spain and sent to the Mediterranean area: Andalusia, Murcia and Catalunya mainly. In France, around 475 were caught and imprisoned, sentenced to be sent to the French overseas territories but eventually freed after some time.

In the 20th century, during the dictatorship in Spain they were oppressed and very usually imprisoned under the Law of Idles and Miscreants, that punished those with no specific home and job. In the nazi occupied France, although there are no official numbers, it's known that many Roma citizens were sent to different concentration camps.

In the 60s and 70s in Spain, Roma people - only 5% of them remained nomadic by then - used to live very precariously in the outskirts of the main cities in neighborhoods formed by handmade unsanitary shacks. The city councils took care of these places as late as in the 80s and 90s, building public houses to host them.

Nowadays, although their general situation is much more comfortable than in the past, Roma people still face discrimination and the freaking same prejudices as in the 16th century in EH which is a shame on us as a people. And sadly we're not the only ones: in France in 2010 Sarkozy proposed to expell every Roma that hadn't the French nationality.

After 600 years living with Basques, Roma people here developed their own language called erromintxela, a sort of Basque-Romani pidgin that sadly has less than 1,500 speakers nowadays.

Also, Romas have a role in some of the traditional masquerades here in EH, like the kaskarotak, although some authors defend this socially accepted group wasn't formed just by Roma people, but by agotes and other minorities too.

Still, these traditions are beginning to be questioned as problematic. For example, the masquerade from Zuberoa where beltzak (the blacks) are thought to be based on Roma people and have dirty faces and act wild are opposed to gorriak (the reds) that are believed to represent native people and wear shiny clothes and dance at unison.

Yeah. And not that long ago I read an article against the celebration of kaldereroak that truly had a point, since it seemingly started as a mockery against Kalderash people and even nowadays we see someone in a blackface during the celebration; which yeah, it's terrible, but believe me, here it's not socially percieved as terrible as in the US.

Truth be told, I'd say 90% of Basque people blissfully ignore these celebrations started as a mockery and spread a misrepresentation of Roma people; which isn't an excuse, but it's still a fact 💁‍♀️.

Sorry for the looong post!

[pamicakery]

OKAY LISTEN TO ME

(long post ahead sorry)

It's been some weeks that I have been reflecting on my manifestation journey. Between the term 3d, 4d, imagination, external world etc.. It can be pretty confuse...

... Even tho it's pretty simple.

˚₊‧꒰ა Manifesting is about printing our SM ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

When we come here on '' Earth '' we base ourselves with our senses. That we have X parents, X appearance, this is our city, our identity. That our world is structured with time, days, month, linear time.

And that we associate imagination with something not real. We discover about science, we got belief about how the world works '' Money is hard to make, we have to work hard, we need a job to make money ''. Sometimes we have toxic parents telling ourselves '' You can't do it, you are not pretty, you are good at nothing ''.

And we find ourselves with a 💩 mindset. What the subconscious mind understand is that the world is a cruel place when making money for a living is hard.

But guess what..

₊✩‧₊˚౨ You can change it! ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

I will never repeat it enough, but manifesting is only about your mind. It's about what is real for your subconscious mind.

♡ We learned that what we see with our senses is the truth, because it's making us aware of our environnement.

I feel like we were brainwashed to think like that.But we can change that! We just have to create a new scenario.

˚₊‧꒰ა the crush example ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Back when I was 16, I had a crush on a guy in my class. He was a lot with girls, speaking to them, laughing, smiling etc. I was feeling like a plastic bag around him. But everytime, I was thinking about me and him together.

I was daydreaming everyday, calling him my boyfriend with my friends etc. I was making this alive in my brain. At every interaction I was looping the scene in my mind, feeling the emotions I felt because it felt good.

So my subconscious mind, despite the fact that sometimes we were on hot and cold behavior, only took one truth, we were together as a couple.

🌸I just changed the scenario because before, when I had crushes I used to told myself

'' He doesn't love me ''. '' He ignored me today ''.

˚₊‧꒰ა The friend group example ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

In my early 20, I had a group of friend. We were all new, so we talked and shared about each other. Everything went well and everyone loved me.

But for some reasons, I started to feel myself excluded from them. I felt alone even though they were around me.

Even though the outside was saying :

'' they are laughing with me, they are talking to me ''

My mind was saying :

'' I feel lonely. I feel apart ''

♡And everytime I was repeating this loop of feeling lonely, the sadness, me asking myself '' Why Can't I have better friend? I feel so left out ''

As a result, my subconscious mind understood how I felt and because it was repetitive, it validated it by making them horrible, they were walking together leaving me behind, mocking me, stealing my stuff, not inviting me anymore.

The subconscious mind doesn't make a difference between what you are describing :

-Coming from the outside.

-Coming from the inside.

For it, it's the same. What makes a difference is the emotions you are putting into those facts and the frequency you are giving this information.

The more you give information to your subconscious mind about how you feel, it will assume it as true. No matter if it was seen with the senses or imagined.

(I didn't said '' real or imagined '' because the SM take both of them as real)

₊✩‧₊˚౨ You can have this Actor, this Kpop Idol, be rich, be beautiful if your subconscious mind assume it as true ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

The possibilities are infinite. Really. You can be this, or that. You can be a cake tester and be paid 15k a month just for eating cakes.

If your subconscious mind assume it as true, you can.

You can change your parents, your age, your physical appearance.

If your subconscious mind assume it as true, you can.

₊✩‧₊˚౨ The subconscious mind is like a baby ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

Apple flavored or banana flavored a yogurt is a yogurt and the baby will eat it anyway.

'' Seen with the senses or with your mind a fact is a fact and the subconscious mind will consider them as true anyway.

Go soft on yourself. You don't need to feel a flushes of emotions, feeling or regenerated, or powerful. Go easy. Keep it simple. Even just a smile it's okay. When you are introducing yourself, you are not saying

'' My name is X '' with a flush of emotions.

You are saying it like a fact.

₊✩‧₊˚౨ There is a ton of reality ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

-The trip example :

Past year, my family was going on a trip to Paris. They were about to see the Eiffel tower, Disney etc.

For financial reasons, I couldn't afford it so I told my family that I wasn't going with them.As the days goes by, I saw them buying clothes, suitcases, seeing videos of Paris, Disney. I started to feel sad because I knew that I wasn't part of the trip.So I started to isolate myself and thinking

'' What if I am going with them? ''

'' I started to imagining myself with them sitting in the boarding area, sitting on the plane, travelling with them. Seeing the Eiffel tower, Disney ''

And after that, I was saying '' It would be a surprise and a miracle to live that ''

Because based on my senses I wasn't going. But I opened the door to another reality. I was thinking about the opportunity to going with them MORE than staying at home and see them leaving.

And that's what happened.

My subconscious mind assumed that I was part of the trip.

The night before the trip I got everything paid from the plane ticket, to the hotel to Disney.

To make it short because this post is getting too long is that :

Your current life is based upon what your subconscious mind assume as true. For instance, your perception of truth is based on your senses. As your subconscious mind doesn't make the difference between your senses and your mind, speak in your favor.

The more you repeat a pattern, the more it will be printed in your subconscious mind. Because, you are reinforcing an identity in your mind regarding of the outside. The story of the mind is printing your subconscious mind.

Ex :

In my mind, me and my crush were in love so I was printing a love pattern for my crush.

In my mind, I was alone so I was printing a loneliness pattern for my friends.

In my mind I was travelling with my family so I was printing a travelling pattern for my trip.

♡

If your name is X, it's because the outside/senses have printed this into your subconscious mind through your parents, documents, and calling you by that name since you are aware.

➡️So as you can see there was a printing process to saturate your subconscious mind.

So print your subconscious mind for it to assume you have what your desire. Think about it, saturate your mind, or don't. You can assume that you just affirm once and you got it, you can assume that you can wake up with your desires.

If you are changing your appearance stop checking your flaws in the mirror. Stop Reinforce your negative pattern.

˚₊‧꒰ა And if you feel like you are lying ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

Know that you are not, it's because you have assumed first the reality you were observing. We are trained to be believe what our senses shows us.

But don't worry. The feeling of ''not believing it' 'it' s the ego because your subconscious mind will alway believe it.

Imagine it like telling a story to your boss and a coworker. The coworker never believes you and need proof (the logical brain) and your boss believes you without any proof because it trust you (the subconscious mind).

The ego will aways barks and speak louder, but the subconscious mind is calm and just nods and accept it silently.

And remember, the more you repeat your affirmation, visualisations, pattern. The more the SM will believe it.

The goal is not to prove it to the ego with external validation, but it's to prove it to the subconscious mind with internal conviction.

Go straight to your mind, and make your subconscious mind assuming your truth, the one you imagined, the one in your favor.

[sal-absinthii]

100% agree (this is coming from a Snape blogger)

I understand why people are only interested in characters other than their favourites to the extent with which they interact with their favourite, and I don't necessarily think that's a problem; if the Marauders fans want to spend all of their energy only talking about how incidents like the werewolf prank affected their faves and give little if any airtime to how it affected Snape or anyone else, that is entirely their right (this was a real example I saw so it is why I used it). But if that's what you want to do then you need to understand the limitations of it and not attempt to draw conclusions about other characters based solely on their interactions with your fave, or to judge them based on how it made your fave feel.

It annoys me that people act like Lily was either perfect or unforgivably selfish (usually, it seems, depending on their views of Snape and/or James). It also annoys me that people take their unsubstantiated and unfair black-and-white view of her and project that onto ~the narrative~ or authorial intent. Lily was NOT flawless or unusually terrible, and we know this because we are given evidence and clues about her personality and motivations in the text itself, and yet people will still accuse "the text" of portraying her over-simplistically just because they have failed to read between the lines even a little. I have seen JKR accused of being a misogynist for painting Lily as a madonna whose only value is in vicariously redeeming men, and I have seen her also accused of being a misogynist for painting Lily as a selfish stuck-up gold-digger. The reality is that if either of these are your takeaway about Lily, it says far more about you than it does about either Lily or JKR and I suspect that the misogyny in question does not lie in them.

People seem to really forget that she is, at the end of the day, a teenager, who has reactions a teenager would and makes choices a teenager would. I like the argument here too about how A. a lot of women do end up with abusive people and it doesn't mean that the abuser is not abusive just because at some point the woman presumably chose to be with them, and B. the only relevant thing as far as Lily is concerned is what Lily thought. You could argue that she did see it and chose to delude herself, which could be an interesting angle to take about her psychology, but that is also a human thing to do and wouldn't make her evil. We know that the bullying continued. That doesn't mean Lily has the same information and distance about it that we do.

I think a lot of this website would fail the theory of mind test, and it's kind of ironic that a lot of the people who keep saying she ought to have had more empathy for Snape and the emotional maturity to know that he needed friendship make their argument in a way that demonstrates they are unable or unwilling to empathise even a little with Lily or have the emotional maturity themselves to understand that this is a teenager navigating all the usual teenage problems with some political conflicts thrown into the mix and she also deserves to be given some mercy about any choices she makes that we, on behalf of our faves, wish she hadn't.

how can lily be a good person if she married a bully?

I'm going to break this down because it does legitimately seem to be an issue for so many people. I received quite a few asks about this a few days ago so I'm just going to address it generally here. Apologies for the length of this, I tried to cover everything I could think of. Let's get two things out of the way first:

Firstly, if you truly believe James was an abuser, and you're seriously asking how a woman could ever marry an abusive man, this is indicative of a fundamental lack of understanding about how abuse works. This is victim-blaming rhetoric. Abusers are predatory, manipulative, and often extremely charming, and they have a specific methodology for ensnaring their victims. I highly recommend Lundy Bancroft's book Why Does He Do That for further reading on how abuse works. The reality is that women marry abusive men all the time, and it doesn't make them bad people. If you believe otherwise we simply have nothing to talk about here.

Second, the question of whether or not James ACTUALLY changed his behaviour is irrelevant here, so I'm not going to directly address it either way. The main thing is that Lily BELIEVED that he had changed, whether or not he actually did, and we know this from Harry's conversation with Remus and Sirius. We also know she wasn't aware of the full extent of the bullying, as she didn't know the details about the prank.

For the purposes of this I'm going to adopt the perspective that James never changed, had 0 character development, and was secretly a terrible person the whole time. To be clear this isn't what I believe-- but I think it's helpful to start from a similar place.

Onto the main points:

An overly forgiving nature can be a flaw, but it doesn't make someone a bad person.

Nor does it make them selfish. Even if I concede that James was irredeemably evil as a person, the fact that Lily believed him to be better than he was, even if she was wrong, makes her at worst naive, not selfish. In fact, I'd argue that it's a sign of empathising with someone too much, which is sort of the opposite of selfishness. We know that Lily had an overly-forgiving nature, because she demonstrates that with Severus when she's willing to overlook his associations with the worst people of all time. And as we know from the fact that her friends were openly critical of it, and that she suffered as a result of it, her friendship with Sev was hardly 'convenient' for her. That she forgave him and overlooked his behaviour, and defended him, despite the fact that it was actively inconvenient for her, indicates empathy (and probably too much of it) not selfishness. Being overly forgiving is an established character trait of Lily's, as she tells us she "made excuses for [Sev] for years." Making excuses for someone you love is a flaw, but not one necessarily rooted in selfishness. Again, it was actively inconvenient for Lily to make excuses for Sev. It's also a very human flaw, not one that makes her a bad person-- especially when you consider that Lily's capacity for forgiveness had its limits, as she demonstrated with Snape.

To forgive is an act of compassion... it's not done because people deserve it, it's done because they need it.

anyway with that buffy quote out of the way, lets move on

Lily owes Snape nothing.

I'm sure people will disagree, but, objectively, she just doesn't. They are not friends at this point. He has demonstrated consistently that he doesn't have enough consideration for her to stop rubbing shoulders with people who literally want to murder her, including a boy who attacked her housemate. So why is Lily expected to take into account his feelings and his history with James? Which leads right into:

It's a massive double-standard for Lily to be blamed for marrying James when Snape isn't afforded the same for associating with Death Eaters.

I mean, think what you want, but to me being a mass murderer intent on exterminating an entire subset of the population (talking about Voldemort and other DEs here, not Snape) is like, maybe, a tiny bit worse than being a bully in school. But what do I know. Snape willingly joined up with such people, knowing perfectly well what they wanted to do to Lily, the woman he loved, and everyone like her. If Lily's choice in husband makes her a selfish person, then by your own logic Snape is completely irredeemable and you should probably delete your blog about how misunderstood and babygirl he is.

Sometimes people marry or befriend terrible people.

Similar to the first point, lack of judgement is a flaw but not one that directly indicates selfishness. Again, remember, Lily believed James to have changed. She believed, whether or not she was wrong, that redemption is possible. It's extremely common for women to date and marry terrible men, unfortunately, and to be blinded to their flaws. There are many possible reasons for this. I guess you can argue that the desire to be loved is inherently selfish, but that still wouldn't make Lily notably selfish at all, rather just a normal human. Plenty of people have had the experience of dating someone who is terrible or being friends with someone who is terrible at some point in their lives, and it doesn't automatically make them terrible themselves. People make mistakes and have poor judgment occasionally. Her actions in SWM suggest she would not have tolerated nor validated any cruelty from James towards others, had she been aware of it. Anyway, once again if you're holding Lily responsible for James's actions you need to also hold Snape responsible for the actions of his buddies. If it's selfish for Lily to associate with a bully (who she believed to have reformed) it's straight up devoid of any humanity whatsoever for Snape to KNOWINGLY associate with people like Mulciber, Voldemort, and Bellatrix. I don't actually believe this btw, I'm just following the logic through.

Furthermore, it's completely unfair to blame Lily for, in particular, the past actions of her husband.

As we clearly see in SWM, she did NOT tolerate his behaviour during the years before they started dating. James's behaviour is simply not Lily's responsibility, and neither is Snape's. It's not her job to fix them nor pay for their mistakes, nor should she have to investigate and tally up all their past wrongdoings when making her own choices. If James was actively being a menace and Lily was just watching going 'teehee' I'd understand this more, but again, she was NOT aware. Based on her behaviour in SWM, this would be out of character for Lily.

Someone having a moral stance you personally disagree with doesn't automatically make them a bad person.

If your moral stance is that James's past actions are completely unforgivable, and you could not personally date someone who did what he did, no matter how he evolved as a person, that's perfectly fine. As I've established, Lily was not aware of any continuing wrongdoing, nor would she have validated or supported it had she been aware. Lily's belief was that the person she was currently dating was a good person. She believed in redemption and second chances. If you personally do not believe in redemption or second chances, I'd question why you even like Snape, but ultimately that's your prerogative. However, believing otherwise doesn't make Lily a bad person nor selfish, even if you personally disagree or think she was wrong. People are allowed to be mistaken.

Snape was probably less relevant to their lives than you think.

Like to be quite honest, they were fighting a war and priorities had shifted, as they often do in adulthood. Lily ended her friendship with Sev, and after Hogwarts James and Lily almost certainly had no association with him whatsoever. Is Lily expected to continually self-flagellate over Snape for the rest of her life? Is she expected to take him into account in every decision she makes, forever? Believe it or not James and Lily existed separately to Snape, rather than as extensions of his character. They moved on. Snape didn't, that's what makes him beautiful-- and yes there's a reason why Snape couldn't move on, but, again, that is not Lily's responsibility. It seems reasonable to me that, particularly given the extreme nature of her circumstances, Lily would take into account first and foremost the actions she observed from James in the present, rather than what he did in the past. See above re: Lily owes Snape nothing.

Being selfless, kind, or a good person doesn't make one perfect.

When I say Lily was selfless, I do NOT mean that she was flawless. If this is your takeaway I worry for you. Also, enough about the Virgin Mary lol. Anyway, humans are complex, and selfless people are capable of selfishness on occasion. Everyone is. A certain amount of selfishness is not only normal, it can be a good thing and necessary for protecting yourself. When Lily ended her friendship with Sev, it was something she was doing for herself, so in the most technical sense (and it's still a huge stretch) it can be viewed as selfish. Nobody is or should be 100% selfless all the time. So even were I to concede that she was selfish in marrying James (which I don't) it doesn't preclude her being a selfless person in general.

Being selfless, kind, or a good person doesn't make a female character 'unrealistic.'

What even is this argument, honestly. Like do you just not believe in the existence of good women irl? Suspicious. I would gently suggest that if you find it unrealistic (or boring) for a woman to be a good person, that's maybe something you should take a closer look at. If your automatic assumption about a woman is that she must have married a man for his money, I would also interrogate that belief.

idk she was a teenage girl, pls develop some empathy

once you come down from your podium in the unholy tribunal, it might be worth considering female characters (and women in general) as human, and not just avatars who simply react to the emotional turmoil of men. At absolute worst you could assume that she was tricked by James (which I still disagree with, but it's a slightly more generous reading) or was blind and naive. All of which are more understandable than, for some reason, assuming she was a conniving bitch who wanted to hurt Snape and selfishly marry into wealth. Ultimately her decision to marry James probably had nothing to do with Snape at all. She was 21 when she died. Bad judgment is common at that age, and it's not necessarily a product of selfishness at all. Look, I'd understand this whole thing more if everyone was in their 30s. But is it not the teenage girl experience of all time to date an asshole? Do you have no empathy for that situation? Like I said, I'm arguing this based on the idea that James was completely irredeemable; would an abuser not abuse his girlfriend too? Would someone who is evil and cruel in all respects not also display cruelty to his wife? Can you not summon up an ounce of empathy for a 17 year old who might have thought, as many young girls do, 'I can fix him?'

To conclude, I think that the idea that Lily marrying a bully makes her a bad person is just rooted in lack of empathy for her as a character. Despite spending hours dissecting every last thought process a man might have had, there's no attempt at all to try and understand Lily's motives, rather they're considered exclusively from the perspective of Snape's emotions. This is unfair.

I don't doubt that it hurt Snape's feelings for Lily to date and marry James. But Snape's feelings are no longer her concern. She owes him nothing. Sev called his best friend a slur publicly and joined an organisation that wanted to murder her, with no respect for her feelings at all. They are no longer friends, and he has no right whatsoever to expect her to consider his own emotional needs anymore, and her choices no longer have anything to do with him. Nor should they have.

Whether or not you think it was a mistake for Lily to marry James, that's Lily's problem. Not Snape's. If you truly believe James was a monster, logically it's Lily you should be feeling sorry for. The fact that there's no empathy for her to be found, and that people revert so quickly to the Top 100 Misogyny Classic of 'she must be a gold digger' speaks for itself.

[acti-veg]

Hi! So uh, first of all I just wanted to say thank you for everything you do :) your book and your blog were some of the main things that even made me go vegan in the first place and I still learn a lot from your articles and posts!! You’re an amazing activist! Seeing people like you restores my faith in humanity tbh so thank you again so so much 💗

Anyway, I’m writing this ask because I’ve been struggling a lot emotionally as a vegan and I feel like I need advice from someone more experienced. I know you must spend a lot of time interacting with carnists when advocating for veganism. You’ve been doing this for years and still you’re going strong, so I just wonder how you manage to stay positive and not get too hurt in the process…

My problem is that whenever I see animal products or hear people spreading carnist views I react overly strongly. Often, I almost feel physical pain and can’t bring myself to interact with those people, it just hurts so much. Animal cruelty is everywhere and it feels like I can’t do anything about it. It’s heartbreaking, horrifying, depressing, and the worst part is how normalised it is.

It feels like there’s no escape. Somehow I can’t go outside without walking past a meat market, I can’t cook for myself without seeing a chicken corpse in the fridge, I can’t even play a video game without seeing images of animal products, etc... All these things are supposed to be normal, but they’re just so distressing to me. What makes me feel especially horrible is seeing/hearing anti-vegans spreading misinformation and such. I feel like if I see another post saying that "leather is good and sustainable actually" I’m going to explode. Is it just me or are other people that affected as well?

This would probably be easier to deal with if I had an ethical vegan friend or two who’d understand how I feel, but I don’t have any. I live with four carnists and even my partner apparently hates vegans (tried to tell them about my feelings and they got personally offended). And I know there’s a big community of vegan people out there, but there’s not nearly enough of us and I still feel so isolated and alone in my experiences.

I’m so sorry for venting. What I meant to ask is, do you ever feel like that? Is there anything that can help me not feel depressed whenever I see animal products? And thank you so much again for doing what you do. You are truly a wonderful person and I hope life treats you well <3

Thank you for the kind words, I’m so glad my blog had an impact on you!

I’m sorry to hear that you’ve been having such a bad time of it, I wish I could say that this isn’t common but I’ve had dozens of asks like this one. I firmly believe that going vegan is an extremely positive decision, but there are negatives that come from knowing what we know, and trying to exist in a society that is built on the backs of exploited animals. We have all felt like this, myself included.

Honestly, it sounds like you may consuming a bit too much vegan content, or possibly spending too much time engaging wifh and thinking about veganism specifically. Do you have any hobbies that help relax and distract you? Reading, gaming, exercise? I find all of these really helpful for clearing my head, especially exercise. There is such a thing as overexposure for vegans, and I’ve definitely been there myself.

What helps me most is trying to focus on the positive side of being vegan. Follow more positive content like sanctuaries, rescue centres, recipe creators, plant-based fitness blogs - whatever makes you happy. Avoid engaging with upsetting content, that includes graphic footage of any kind, anti-vegan content, debates and arguments. Create a little bubble for yourself that you can escape in, even if that means having seperate accounts for when you’re feeling this way and just want some escapism.

Try and visit an animal sanctuary, even if you have to make this a long term goal if there isn’t one that is accessible to you. I can’t describe how helpful this is an experience, to remember who this is all about and the fact that not all animals are suffering and unhappy. Seeing wild animals in their natural habitat can achieve the same thing.

For me, the best balm to this sort of feeling is activism. It is a big part of why I do this, it isn’t all altruistic. Turning some people of that negative towards something positive can help you feel much less helpless. See if there are any animal rights groups in your area (you’d also make vegan friends) but if not, try doing some of your own work, even if that is just online, signing/making petitions, blogging, letter writing - whatever you can do.

I’d also recommend this talk from Melanie Joy about activist burnout, which something close to what you’re experiencing, and she has some really helpful advice. That pain and disconnect from others will always be there, but I hope you manage to find some tools for coping with it that work for you, that is really all any of us can do. Take care of yourself, anon!

[anomalyaly]

Personal rant below:

I don't usually come on here to do this because I HATE complaining so openly but...

This week ALONE, I have had several people coming onto my HL social media pages and my Wattpad page (actual people, not bots) commenting and asking me to read their fics and "promoting their content." Normally, I just delete and ignore, but this week for WHATEVER reason, I had an influx of them and it really, really bothered me.

This might be a controversial take, but please DO NOT do this.

I love reading other people's fics. I love commenting and encouraging others to keep writing. But to not even follow my work, to not even READ anything I've written, and then come onto my profile and beg me to read your stuff just for views and likes? It makes me feel like you are using my page, where I post MY creations, to make it about YOU.

Fandom is a community. If you want to yap with me about your writing, I'm happy to listen! If you want to ask for advice, I'm happy to share! But PLEASE DO NOT use my page to promo your work to other people!

I know this new culture of fandom has become extremely transactional - we judge ourselves based on how many views/likes/comments our story gets and feeling like we don't get a lot of engagement can take its toll. I know. I've been there. Your feelings are valid, and I completely understand that.

But if you are expecting me to give you views and likes when you don't even BOTHER to try to make friends or interact with me in a genuine way, and then use MY profile to promote your fic, I will block you and delete your comment, and it will forever go ignored.

Please, PLEASE don't take this as me refusing to read others' fics. I love reading other people's work. I love talking about our mutual fandoms and giggling about the things that we write. But when it turns into using others for "content promotion", it takes all the fun out of fandom. It's really discouraged me this week getting all of these messages and makes me not want to create anymore.

Anyway. Sorry for the long rant.

[macolethings]

The First Date - Imperfectly Perfect Series

After working together for a few months, Lexa finally mustered up the courage to ask Clarke out on a date, giving Clarke a chance to see a completely different side of her. 

Read here on A03 or continue on below:

“Face shields, check. Neck guard, check.” Lexa said to herself, making sure she had everything she needed for her date with Clarke today.

Lexa had finally mustered up the courage to ask her on a real date after their recent “non-date” coffee date Clarke owed Lexa. There was a slight mishap of Clarke overhearing a phone conversation between Lexa and her sister Madi, and an assumption that the person receiving an “I love you” and “miss you” was a girlfriend or boyfriend. But it resulted in Lexa finding out that her attraction to Clarke was reciprocated.

Since most of their interactions happened while Lexa was training with the EMTs, which was Clarke’s domain, Lexa decided to show Clarke a little of her world on their date. Her hands had sweat the whole drive over to Clarke’ to Clarke’s house. It was beautiful outside, so she had the top to her jeep off and the air conditioner on blast trying to cool off and dry her hands.

When she reached Clarke’s door, she took a deep breath in to steady her heart and knocked on the door. Clarke was wearing black leggings and a light blue shirt that made her eyes pop. Her hair was up in a messy ponytail, and she had glasses resting on top of her head.

Clarke stepped out, tossing the duffle bag of extra clothes she was told to bring onto her shoulder and locking the door.  “So, where are you taking me?” Clarke’s asked as Lexa beckoned Clarke to hand her the bag.

“Well, I hope you don’t mind, but every third Saturday of the month, me and a group of friends meet up to play paintball. We could always use a plus one, so if you’re game?…” Lexa trailed off, unsure of how Clarke would react. But, Clarke had said she wanted to get to know her and this was a big part of Lexa.

Clarke’s eyebrow raised. “So, you want me to play paintball for the first time ever with a bunch of your friends? That regularly play?” A hint of a smirk peaked out on her lips.

“I am positive you’ll be able to hold your own.” Lexa beamed. “Plus, I’ll be there to protect you. Not that I think you’ll need it.”

They pulled into a gravel parking lot fifteen minutes later. There were three different fields, based on the mesh fencing Clarke could see.

Each one was built up entirely different than the others. One was a large field, filled with haystacks and wooden fencing randomly placed throughout its enclosure. Another had field had a tower at each end, with mini shipping containers spread about; a few of the containers even had doors.

The largest playing field was in between the two fields and behind the check-in station and equipment shed. The field was as big as the other two combined, and full of trees and shrubbery. At one end, there was a massive hill. Clarke swore she could see a bunker or two built into the hill itself. The other side was filled with… junk. But the junk has been used to make mini sheds and fences. It looked like a futuristic apocalyptic world where people used what they could to build new villages.

A gentle touch to Clarke’s lower back brought her attention to Lexa.

“That’s where we are playing today.” Lexa said, pointing to the massive field Clarke had just been eyeing. “My friends are over there,” she pointed to an area where a bunch of kids were gathered with a couple adults.

As they walked over, a boy barely into adulthood ran over to them, stopping in front of Lexa. Clarke was confused; he seemed too young to be part of the friends group Lexa mentioned.

“Commander,” he said, holding his arm out to Lexa, whose cheeks started to turn pink. She reached down and clasped his arm, giving it a shake.

“Good morning, Aden. Is everyone here?”

Aden told her they were just waiting on a few more people before turning to Clarke.

“Hi, I’m Aden.” He lifted his hand in a small wave. “You must be Clarke. It’s great to finally meet you.”

Lexa fidgeted for a second, before Aden continued. “Lexa talks about you all the time.”

She turned her head fully to Lexa and saw that the red of her cheeks had spread to the ears.

“It’s a pleasure to meet you, Aden.” Clarke finally returned back.

Aden took back off toward the group, leaving just the two of them.

“Those are your friends?” Clarke asked, just towards the kids.

Lexa smiled. “Yep.”

“Little young, aren’t they?” Clarke teased, causing Lexa to laugh.

Lexa went on to explain how the ragtag group came to be. When Lexa was growing up, the neighbors that lived next-door to her fostered kids that needed safe, temporary homes. The kids tended to latch onto Lexa, almost like she was a big sister. She fully understood that she was privileged to have a family; one that loved her unconditionally. So, she shared that love with the kids that came to live at the house.

When she moved to Arkadia she looked for a way to do something with the foster kids in town, even though she knew there would be a lot of studying, long days in school, and weekend military exercises. Once her background check was done, she was able to start working directly with the kids. It helped that those that worked for child services in Polis knew her as well.

One day, a few of them were out playing in a park and saw people playing paintball. They offered the kids the chance to shoot at some targets and the rest was history. With permission from their guardians, and with Aden’s help, the two started a monthly paintball meetup. It gave the kids a chance to release any anger they had in a fun way, and gave them all a sense of community.

“So, badass Lexa Woods is a softy?” Clarke asked.

“Absolutely.” She smiled. “But don’t tell anyone else that. I try to keep that a secret.”

“Sure thing, commander.” The pink rushed back to Lexa’s face fast and she dropped her head.

“Stupid Aden.” she mumbled.

Once everyone was present, Lexa announced they were playing on the Maunon Course and split the group up, making sure that both teams had the same number of adults. Then, the rules for the game were briefed.

The Mountain People would have a flag that the Tree People had to collect in order to win. It would be guarded inside the mini mountain itself. Meanwhile, the mountain people could snatch up the Tree People by pulling a flag off their person, and they would be forced to fight for the Mountain People. The game would end when the Mountain’s flag was caught or all of them were dead, or when all the Tree People were dead or captured.

“Isn’t this a bit intense for kids?” Clarke asked.

Lexa shook her head. “I always inform the guardians what the games will entail so they can decide if it’s the right fit. Sometimes we just use the other fields and play simpler games, but we finally got a reservation on this field and I wanted to go all out.”

Lexa donned all her equipment, and helped Clarke into the extras she brought for her. In Lexa’s opinion, Clarke looked adorable in all her gear, including the coveralls that were a bit too long, but had her name sewn into them. She gave Clarke the mask that had the full faceguard, keeping the simple goggle set for herself claiming that she was trained for this type of thing and would be just fine.

Lexa took Clarke off to the side and showed her how the gun worked. Then, she stood behind Clarke, setting her arms hands into the correct positions to ensure an accurate shot. She was surprised when Clarke hit near the bullseye each time.

“You sure you’ve never done this before?” Lexa asked. Her eyes dropped to Clarke’s lips for just a second, but it was long enough for Clarke to catch, who bit her lip and winked.

During the ten minutes each team had to come up with a strategy. Lexa and Clarke, leaders of the Tree People, came up with a plan to send a large group of the kids with Lexa towards the main entrance of the mountain, while a smaller stealthy faction broke off with Clarke to the smaller door on the back side. It was risky, but Lexa agreed it was a great option. If it didn’t work, they’d have to lure the mountain people out; Lexa potentially having to sacrifice herself for her people.

When the airhorn blew, chaos ensued. Some of the younger kids were too excited to stay put and instantly started running towards the hill and shooting at anything that moved. Yellow and blue paintballs could be seen flying through the air in all directions.

Clarke had done well keeping their small group a secret until one of the kids on her team got stuck in the tree. She had no idea how he got up there, but he had grown scared and wouldn’t come down. As she stood on a rock stretching out to get him, a few kids from the mountain ambushed them.

“Maunon!” the kid yelled, as they closed in around them. Lexa heard the scream and ran as fast as she could across the field. Most of her people had been taken and Lexa needed to save the few she had left. But she didn’t make it in time.  Clarke had just caught the falling kid, preventing him from hitting the ground, when both their flags were taken. With her people dwindling quickly it was time to sacrifice herself as a distraction; it was her team’s only hope.

Lexa jutted back and forth behind trees to reach the main door. As hard as she tried, she got hit in her right arm and leg in a few spots. She finally dove behind a tree close to her destination, doing everything possible to stay in the game.  

“I want to make a deal.” She yelled. When all eyes turned to her, she waved her hand giving her final two teammates the signal to move in. “I just want to talk!”

She stepped around the tree, hands up, and hoped they would honor her request.

Aden stepped out from the door, gun in hand. He didn’t let her speak. “The mountain people don’t make deals. Fire!!”

With that one word, yellow and blue pellets rained down on Lexa. She lifted her arms to cover her face and let the bracers take the brunt of any shots that went towards it. Looking back, maybe should have kept the full shield for herself. That thought was solidified when one ball broke through a gap and hit her in the lip. She dropped to her knees, the signal for them all to stop shooting.

She laughed through the pain as she started to call out. “Medic!” She sat up, groaning as blood dripped from her lip. “I need a medic. Woman down.” She flopped back down onto the ground, arms and legs sprawled out.

Clarke jogged over to her spot and took her mask off. She was relatively clean, but she had a few paint marks on her arms and legs as well. When she knelt down, she slowly lifted Lexa’s goggles up off her head.

“If I knew you would do something like that, I’d have switched masks with you.” Clarke said.

“I’m a gentlewoman, Clarke. I wouldn’t have accepted.” Lexa rubbed her face with her hands, smudging the paint on her face into a teary-eyed mask as it mixed with the sweat.  But all Clarke could stare at were the bright green eyes that looked excited to see her.

Clarke brought her hands up to Lexa’s face, turning it from one side to the other. Clarke gently traced her thumb underneath Lexa’s lip to get a good look at the gash, but just like their touches as work, it lingered longer than necessary. Lexa shivered at the soft, delicate touch.

“They got you pretty good.”

“It was worth it to save my people.” Lexa smiled, then twinged when it pulled the wound further apart.  

Clarke gasped and put her hand over her heart. “And here I thought you did it for me.”

“You are my people, Clarke.” Lexa said, smiling again. “Damnit!” she said a little too loud for the company they had around them. Her hand instinctively shot up towards her own mouth.

“Well, stop smiling.” Clarke told her.

“I can’t help when you’re around.” Lexa winked.

Clarke shook her head and laughed.

“Come on Romeo, let’s go clean that and get some ice on it.”

- - - -  ∞ - - - -

Lexa stood under the shower in the locker room, letting the hit water relax her body. She always enjoyed paintball, but getting pelted numerous times, even with the protective armor, always left her body sore.

She was very attuned to the fact that Clarke was also showering, only two stalls over. So far, Lexa thought the date was going well. Clarke was excited to come try it again on one of the other fields, and when they walked to the locker room, Clarke stayed extra close to Lexa, brushing the backs of their hands together.

Lexa was also amazed at how well Clarke did great with the kids. Great may have been an understatement; the kids flocked towards her and she met each of them with the same level of excitement they brought to her.

Once she was dressed, Lexa stepped out of her stall to do her hair and makeup. She kept the makeup light and was starting on her hair when Clarke stepped out, still in her towel. Lexa tried to focus on putting the cream in her hair to control the waves, but she couldn’t stop looking through the mirror at Clarke’s legs and shoulders.  

“Forgot my bag in the locker.” Clarke said, when she saw Lexa looking at her, lifting her bag and walking back to the shower stall.

Lexa, ever the useless lesbian, just nodded dumbly and muttered a barely audible, “uh huh.” Once her distraction was out of site, Lexa shook her head and went back to her hair.

She debated on putting it back up when Clarke called out. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen your hair down. I love the waves.”

In that second, Lexa decided to leave it down, and control the waves.

When Clarke came back into the main area of the locker room she was dressed and her hair was down, but her bangs had been tied back.

“I just need to put on some makeup and I’ll be good to go.” Clarke told Lexa, saddling up next to her.

“I think you look perfect, just like that.” Lexa said, eyeing her though the mirror.

“Says the walking model.” Clarke retorted.

Lexa blushed and finished her light makeup and then gathered her stuff.

The drive to dinner was fun. Lexa and Clarke both swapped stories of their lives as Lexa drove them towards a lake to a small restaurant that specialized in a tapas; Lexa was a fan of getting several small plates so she could try as a many new foods as possible.

It took several attempts, but by the time they reached the halfway point of their drive, Lexa had successfully rested her hand on Clarke’s thigh. Clarke, a much braver person than Lexa, quickly grasped her hand and intertwined their fingers together. Even though it hurt, Lexa couldn’t help but smile, her thumb rubbing the back of Clarke’s hand. Ever the gentlewoman she claimed to be, when they arrived at the restaurant Lexa leapt from her door and ran over to Clarke’s to open it for her. She took her hand into her own, and escorted her inside.

Their seats were next to the water, and even though they knew they would be the butt if people’s jokes, they sat side by side to face the lake. There was lots of laughter, and subtle touches throughout the whole night; Lexa growing bolder as the night drew on.

At the end of the night, Lexa drove Clarke back to her house, walking her up to her step.

“I had fun today.” Clarke said, swinging their intertwined hands back and forth. “I didn’t expect to get shot at on a date, but the kids were cute.”

“Just the kids?” Lexa asked.

Clarke’s head bobbled back and forth, jokingly contemplating the question. She smiled when Lexa scoffed.

“How’s your lip?” Clarke asked when they stood across from each other. Her hand naturally reached up and her thumb brushed across her lips.

“Hurts.” Lexa said. “But, I hear kisses can make things better?”

“Is that a question?” Clarke asked. “Because I feel like after months of training with the EMTs you should be more knowledgeable.”

Lexa’s hand reached up and took hold of Clarke’s waist, pulling her in close.

“Well, then…” Lexa moved her head closer to Clarke’s. “In my expert option…”

Her words were cut off as Clarke’s lips captured hers. Lexa’s body melted into the kiss, and she pulled Clarke closer to her. It started off slow, but they both sunk into the kiss quickly. Lexa parted her mouth, and captured Clarke’s lower lip.

Lexa pulled away ever so slightly, brushed her nose against Clarke’s, then switched sides to kiss her again. Clarke opened her mouth this time, intensifying the kiss. Tingles shot down Lexa’s body to her stomach when she felt Clarke’s tongue brush against hers.

It was the best kiss Lexa had ever experienced, and she didn’t want to stop. She pivoted slightly and pressed Clarke back against the door. Her hand trailed up Clarke’s arm, up her neck, and combed through her hair, wanting to pull her deeper into the kiss. She couldn’t stop the smile that spread across her face as a small moan came from Clarke, even if it did make kissing Clarke tougher to do.  

She hissed as the smile, once again, pulled the gash on her lip apart.

“Oh my god,” Clarke worried. “I completely forgot about your lip.”

Lexa shook her head. “This is definitely worth it.” She placed her forehead against Clarke’s head. “Seriously. I’ve wanted to do that for months now.”

Clarke leaned in, and gently pressed her lips against Lexa’s once more. “I had a fantastic time today. And, if you’re up to it, I’d like to take you on a date.”

Lexa nodded. “As long as there is minimal risk of injury, I’m game.”

[weirdero]

I’ve seen a lot of people online saying that Piper is either going to be Quinn 2.0 from Season 1 or Olivia 2.0, and honestly, I get it. I understand where those assumptions are coming from and it wouldn’t be the worst thing in the world especially if she ended up as another Quinn. She seems like a nice girl stuck in a fucked up family. But my god that would just be so boringgggg. We’re only on Season 3 it’s way too early for the show to start recycling character archetypes. I also think with the added dynamic of her brothers she’ll be her own evil freaky bitch yk. Anyways the siblings got me fucked up.

Her brothers are themselves. Saxon is the most outrageous out of three I don't think he's ever been proper humbled in his life and has a very very very disgusting black and white outlook on the world.

He's like those men who believe life revolves around sex and sex is just a game. The type of man that excuses his abhorrent terrible behavior on his “natural human instinct”.

Lochlan is definitely chiller, but still a freak in. He seems to crave attention from both of his siblings in a very odd way. He enjoys Saxon’s “life advice” and gossip. I think he’s very aware of his brother’s unhinged nature and recognizes that it’s ridiculous but I genuinely don’t believe he sees it as anything more than that. He’s the kind of guy that just brushes Saxon’s behavior off because “he’s just a silly guy,” YK?

And with Piper, I think he definitely knows she’s the more normal one compared to Saxon. Even though we haven’t seen them interact much yet I think they’re able to have more honest conversations with each other. He tells her that he attempted to pray and even though he didn’t really feel any sort of divine intervention or anything he still chooses to share this with Piper.

He also gives off gossipy vibes. When Saxon tells him he thinks piper has never had sex before he decided to tell piper about it but not in a concerning “our brother is a freak” way but in a playful way, kinda like it’s just some casual chitchat, rather than something deeply weird. Like I mentioned earlier he also excuses his brother behavior by down playing it and explaining the original context of the statement as a “compliment”????

And after piper is clearly disturbed and uncomfortable with this conversation he decides to double down and ask her if she had had sex before.

This gossipy nature comes out during their lunch scene with that whole Kate and Victoria interaction. I already talked about how I interpreted both Kate’s and Victorias feelings in this scene and why the both specifically acted that way in this post but the way Lochlan acts is also very telling of who he is he's the only person at that table to question his mothers odd behavior telling her straight up was was kinda rude. But just like with Saxon I don't he actually cares or takes an issue with how his mom handled that interaction he's not actively trying to call her out but more curious than anything. Get kinda messy with it. YK? Anyways like I said he doesn’t actually care about how she acted based off how he reacts to her prostitution joke laughing along with Saxon and his father. Actually scratch that he looks at Saxon first to check if HES LAUGHING. also he was 100% ready to watch his brother jack off. Weirdo!

Then there’s piper. Like fucking pipe. She does seem to be the most sane out of all of them in the instances that I brought up she’s like literally the only person with an appropriate response. but I still can't properly pin point her. I want to believe she's sane and normal I really do and hell she might be and I might just be too fucking suspicious but there is just something about her. When lochlan tells her about saxsons comment about her sex life her first reaction to me seems defensive. Not even a "why would he say that" type of reaction which she settles for later but a "he doesn't know what I do".

And again, I might be reading into things, but it just feels so specific. I’ve been watching this season with my friends one of them specifically loves Piper’s character and another thinks she’s just a performative white girl Olivia 2.0 But neither of them think she’s a freak.

In defense of my friend who thinks she’s just another privileged white girl she did point out another moment during the family’s lunch conversation

She tells her dad that she didn’t choose this hotel and that it’s not her vibe and its like “Disneyland for rich bohemians from Malibu and their Lululemon leggings”

Then later she’s seen in yoga in what honestly I wouldn’t be surprised if they were Lululemon leggings.

Anyway, it’s almost 8pm where I am now and I need this new episode to drop now.

[360degreesasthecrowflies]

I think the cloak was always intended to have some special prominence, and she only came up with the other two Hallows later, probably because some editor suggested Rule of Three to her.

As for Harry (and co) not being meant to be 17 at the end, I've convinced myself even more of that. Here's some reasons why:

Draco Malfoy is essentially a non-entity in DH. That makes a lot more sense narratively if he was only ever meant to be an important character of their schooldays, but ineffectual and passive in the adult world - which would fit (the young) JKR's view of the idle rich (probably less so now!). Likewise for him being given the quest to kill Dumbledore, randomly. That makes a lot more sense if it's given to him at 17, to prove himself as an adult out of his father's shadow, and that he's unable to do it and has to rely on his mother and aunt (to JKR, weakness) and Snape, his teacher, someone of lower social status. Even Ron and Hermione not believing that Draco might be a Death Eater is more believable if they're one year older than in canon because that's one more year of Draco not progressing as a challenge beyond childish pranks and taunts, while HRH are developing their magic and having adventures

Tonks and Lupin's romance isn't so breakneck and Tonks isn't quite so young when it first happens, given they are scheduled to die having just had a child at the Battle of Hogwarts which gives them a few years of peace to work on/through their relationship

Snape actually has time to 'become Dumbledore' and carry an increasingly darker and more knife edge part of his arc, while also gaining a greater appreciation for his former master, if he heads Hogwarts through multiple Voldemort era years instead of speedrunning that twist in essentially a 9 month three semesters

Harry, Ron and Neville get to have their Auror arc early and it doesn't necessarily happen off-page. Arthur Weasley is also definitely dead in this outline; which gives the Twins and the other Weasley kids an excuse to (be forced to) work to keep their house. Molly, naturally, now goes on missions, as a result it's not quite so surprising when she is able to defeat Bellatrix at the end of the Battle

Moody's death is more impactful as this is now Harry and Ron's direct boss and mentor rather than this guy they vaguely know

Peter Pettigrew likely dies in some other interaction with HRH rather than the out-of-nowhere compelled suicide in canon DH

Harry and Ginny's divide-and-reunite is stronger if they're an established couple who split for her own protection in wartime leaving her in safety to hide; also making it a twist on James & Lily's choice to BOTH hide; rather than them being a teen romance who were only together a few months before breaking up

Thematically, it's resonant if Harry returns to the castle to save it maybe 11 years again after he first joined it, aged 11, half his life ago. This - and retrieving the tiara from the ROR on that return - is also a neat dramatic parallel to Voldemort putting it there in the first place when he returned to the castle as an adult for the first time

But perhaps most importantly; making Voldemort's defeat later in the characters' arc means that JK gets to have her own 'Scouring of the Shire' with how Hogwarts has warped and changed under years of Voldemort's rule - which provides intense dramatic impetus to justify Harry & co's desire to 'put things back how they were' and lionize, no pun intended, the old status quo; instead of it coming off that Harry and his friends experience trauma through their first interactions with the Wizarding World in their first 5-6 years, then Voldemort takes that up to 11 in year 7, but their response in year 8 & beyond is that just bringing it back down to the initial years' baseline trauma would cover all bases as a satisfying solution.

(Perhaps controversial) theories on Harry Potter first drafts/story structure

I've been reading some more old Harry Potter meta (critique) (damn I miss those LiveJournal esque communities) and after some of the theories I've read I'm now 90% sure that Deathly Hallows was actually the third, or maybe even second book that Joanne started writing.

I love deconstruction and I am a writer, so this kind of thing interests me on a personal level as a high-profile reference that a lot of people might be familiar with, even as generally I have strong critiques for Joanne both as a person, and as what I consider to be something of an impostor in the fantasy genre, as a writer who both openly (at the start of her career) disavowed fantasy classics as beneath her, claimed not to be writing fantasy, and in my opinion, heavily plagiarised works of other authors within the genre and then played ignorant when called out on it by people who by that point had less power and industry clout than she did.

This is going to be critical of JKR, so for those not interested in that, maybe don't read on below the cut. It's not my intention to make anyone feel negative about something that's special or sacred to them.

Some members of the LJ community noted that Deathly Hallows (DH) has many, many recurring references and callbacks to the first book, Philosopher's Stone (PS), with certain characters even seeming to regress to those versions of them in terms of their behaviors, motivations, and what they centrally held as important.

After considering it again I've also come to the conclusion that that's one aspect that throws so many readers off DH as a conclusion to the series, a series that has 'grown up with' the reader and consciously shifted from children's lit to YA; and from a series of fantasy holiday movies helmed by Chris Columbus to a fantasy adventure series with gruesome monsters and wands becoming essentially the ranged weapon variant of lightsabers or the conduit for MCU-esque superhero abilities... that in terms of the writing, the morals, and the overarching themes, actually DH goes backward in that regard to the Roald Dahl-inspired simple morality of the first book where violence was cartoonish, monsters were existential rather than grounded, and Harry and friends were essentially young children trying their best to solve a mystery; rather than the adults the world has contextually by now established them to be.

Joanne has boasted that she had written the Epilogue very early on. What if she had in fact written out a lot of DH very early on?

She knew the books were going to cover (at least) seven school years. I think she decided after the first one, she would write (most of) the end of the series, and then if she needed to, she could write more than 5 other books in between.

DH takes place when Harry isn't in school. But nothing about the story means it has to take place when Harry should be in school.

Thematic and character-based parallels-wise, it might have actually made a lot of sense for Harry to be the same age that his parents were when they passed away, in Deathly Hallows, to make the walk through to the forest with his parents' ghosts, back the same age as they were when he first saw them in the Mirror of Erised more of an exact parallel tearjerker.

And a lot of the criticisms that DH faces - "why didn't we see inside Hogwarts during Snape's regime, and what happened to Neville, Luna and Ginny and the rest of the kids in Harry's year?" - would be nixed if this story was never meant to take place in Harry's final school year.

I suspect that what happened at some point during the height of her fame and blowup is that Joanne realised that a) she was so successful already she wouldn't have to write as many books as she had originally planned; especially because b) movies were now also in the works or being released, and the actors would only be believable as teenagers for a certain duration, but this led to c) now she had a smaller total possible number of books in which to fit all of her vague ideas of where the story would end up going and what the big setpieces were planned to be. (Hence the lengths started to balloon)

I might end up writing a part 2 to this because (ironically) I don't want to make this post so long, but as a starting point I would theorize her original outline may have gone something like the following:

Book 1, Harry Potter and the Philsopher's Stone. Establishes our characters and the main setpieces; Harry Potter, Ron-and-Hermione (who essentially function as a two-headed sidekick machine), Snape, Dumbledore, Voldemort, James-and-Lily-Potter

X number of books, as-yet undefined, at least one per school year, but potentially many more, like most contemporaries to her went in to their careers expecting to write, that expand on the young characters' relationships in small ways, with Draco Malfoy, his foil friends to HRH, and his family, as minor antagonists to drag out the series as long as possible - and never intended as more than that, while Dumbledore and Snape bubble away in the background

Harry's final year of school, in which Dumbledore is killed by Snape in front of Harry at the climax of the year, is buried in the school grounds, and Snape ascends to the Headmaster role

Only then at some point, Voldemort is resurrected and takes pride of place as the main villain, pushing Snape down into the secondary villain/antihero role

The final book in which Harry returns to Hogwarts a la Lord of the Rings/The Empire Strikes back, too late to have a confrontation with Snape (a classic tragic beat) and instead has his showdown with Voldemort, finishing his parents' legacy and completing what they themselves could not do.

I genuinely believe that all of the following were late additions to the story that ended up taking on a life of their own with the fandom, that Joanne never planned for, never really anticipated, and - because we know that she is both stubborn to change in general, and sees herself as a visionary above steer or critique - refused to meaningfully update or edit around in the final version of the last book:

Sirius Black existing at all

Remus Lupin existing at all

Peter Pettigrew existing at all

Fudge, Umbridge, and the Ministry-vs-Dumbledore/Harry sideplot - which, knowing that Joanne is a woman of faith, reeks of a 'skeptical nonbelievers vs true Christians of faith' plot

Luna

Everything about the Triwizard Tournament

Everything about the Yule Ball

Everything about the World Cup (I would go as far as proposing these were originally planned as three episodic books that she ended up blending together)

Spotlight Death Eaters like Barty Crouch and Bellatrix Lestrange

The Founders, the Basilisk, and the Sword of Gryffindor

The Horcruxes

Anything about magical creatures, aside from as episodic flavor to provide a one-off background character

International characters like Fleur, Krum and Madame Maxime

Most fight scenes, including everything with the Dept of Mysteries

Grimmauld Place and Kreacher

And perhaps controversially, most of the racist/blood war elements of the conflict in the books. Because, in DH, apart from flavor description of what the Death Eaters etc. are doing...

The conflict described seems, as it did in PS, to be primarily a personal one, with Voldemort's vendetta being against Harry specifically, and as a proxy, Dumbledore's followers, and people who believed in him and his ideals.

And maybe that's why Harry, the character, never seems to end up caring that much about the foundational principles of why they are fighting the war, and who it is actually there to protect, besides his personal connection with Voldemort as his personal nemesis...

Because Joanne never originally wrote it that way. Voldemort dies, and "all was well."

[chronicparagon]

💖 !

Send 💖 and I’ll explain one way my Muse would take care of yours.

This is a hard one because there isn't just one way. There are many, many ways Harmony would take care of Envy. It all depends on Envy's boundaries since she wants him to have control of what happens to him.

The short of it is Harmony wants to treat Envy like a god. The examples below are only a few of the many ways she would do that.

When they are out and there are other people around, Harmony would wrap her arms around one of his own which ends with their hands joined together. This gesture is silent reassurance that she is with him and doesn't plan to leave him for anyone else. There will be other forms of public affection, some initiated by Harmony to give him the same message. Other times, he initiates and she reciprocates.

2. I have a headcanon that Envy would show up in her place whenever she asks him to come over or when he decides to drop by. A lot of the time, it's surprise visits or spending the night (or a few at a time). He has a copy of her key so he doesn't have to always knock. She often frets over his well-being when they are apart, especially when he doesn't answer her texts or calls.

3. At home, she has a space set aside in her dresser and closet. This is because Harmony frets over Envy's well-being, especially when he shows up after walking through the rain. Because his wardrobe is pretty limited, Harmony has a few articles of clothing for him to change into while washing his clothes. She bought these with Envy's style in mind but also to be more comfortable while he's in her house. He doesn't have to use them and he could decline her offer to do laundry, but they are always an option. She also has a clean towel on standby to dry him off so Envy won't have to be dripping from the downpour outside.

4. Harmony also keeps a few hygiene products in her bathroom that's reserved for Envy. These include citrus-scented soap, higher-end shampoo and conditioner, and other things like combs, hairbrushes, toothbrush and toothpaste, and rosewood cologne.

5. When he does show up, Harmony covers the bathroom mirror and also covers her makeup mirror before stowing it away. After that incident of Envy tying her up for not listening when he told her to stop dusting, she figured he doesn't like reflective surfaces. Since then, she has covered things like mirrors.

6. Harmony does well in giving massages, so she offers them to tend to his sore muscles.

7. One of Harmony's favorite ways to take care of Envy is showing her love. One way is body worship, kissing his scars whispering loving words, and believing he's extraordinarily beautiful. She knows they are signs of a very dark past. Harmony never asks about them but will give those imperfections her love.

8. Culture is extremely important to Harmony. She spends time doing on research about Korean culture, such as the important dates and holidays, their beliefs, and Korean dishes and how to make them. She doesn’t know much about his family other than what he said about his mother, but she wants to include his background and culture.

9. One thing I want to point out is wanting to help him. Harmony loves Envy very much, but she is also very scared for him. Another important thing is she remembers that Envy is very dangerous and can be unpredictable. There are times when Harmony feels like she is walking on eggshells. But her love for Envy keeps her there. Leaving him is something she will never consider, and she believes that something very dark is influencing his more frightening behavior. She doesn't know what this darkness is, but something is there. The question is: How to get rid of it? Is that even possible?

These are questions Harmony can't answer. She holds on to the hope that her love will make a difference. She wants Envy to be free from the evil that trapped him since birth. Whether her love and care for him would actually help or make things worse is not yet known. All Harmony knows to do is keep loving Envy, not leave or things could get much worse (not just for her but for everyone else), and keep her eyes open for any sign that could help get his freedom. Anything.

[ The list of what she does to care for him can go on but this post may go on forever if I continue. However, I love talking about these two.]

@s-talking

[quibbs126]

So today I decided to try and draw Skyfire, in the same sort of vein as I did the War Dawn trio, to try and practice him

I mostly chose Skyfire since I made a couple posts about him/skystar, so I figured might as well draw him, especially since he shows up far less than his counterpart

To be perfectly honest, I think I still need a lot of work in drawing these guys, as I’ve said many times before. I think I can get the heads, but I start to get wonky with the chests, and I really didn’t know how to do his shoulders

Anyways, so this design is based on his g1 design, mostly this one image I got of him

But I also wanted to take some liberties with his design, at least in the head area. I’m realizing I didn’t actually change much of the rest of the body outside of omitting bits, as per usual

I don’t know, I think I like the head design, I just need a slight bit more consistency with it. Also in my head, he’s got a visor that drops down to completely cover his face, but the issue there comes in his colors. His glass is blue, so logically his visor mask would be blue too. But the top of his head is also blue, and it’s really the only other place the blue shows up in outside of the glass. So either I’d have to make his mask red and break consistency, or change the top of his helm to be another color (probably red) and get rid of one of the few pops of blue he has

I also just don’t know how to draw his chest things, the sides that pop out. So that’s why they look weird

And also, his shoulders are like the one part of him that’s circular outside of his helm, and it really annoys me because it sticks out so much to me, with basically the rest of him being rectangular

Also also, I don’t know how to do the arms either, in part because of the circular bits and also I don’t know how to make the triangular prisms

Where was I going with this? I don’t remember. All I know is that while I like his head, I’m well aware my drawings of him aren’t the best. I still need to learn how to draw Transformers properly. Which I’ve been saying for quite a while now, but I’m not sure how much progress I’ve made on that front

But anyways, last thing to talk about I suppose is the design itself. I quite like it, but because it doesn’t belong to any continuity, only being me tweaking his g1 design, I’m not sure what to use it for. I could use it for my own if I really wanted to, but of my random AU ideas, I don’t really know where to fit Skyfire in them. And would I make all subsequent designs for this hypothetical AU based on their g1 designs? I don’t really want to do that with Megatron, I don’t really like his helm design in g1 (it’s weird and ill defined to me)

But for now I guess, I have made this Skyfire design. Not the best work of mine, but I’m still trying to learn Transformers, so I’ll take it

[rasmodius-nuisance]

I think this might be a good starting point for my new blog, I have a draft with my main farmer's actual profile, but this will be really helpful for me too! <3 I'll start this post by showing you how she looked 2 irl days ago, I've finally been able to get the blue bow since so that's a bonus! (I'll try to get a screenshot of that as well!) I wanted to dye her skirt to match the overall part of the shirt, but I think it ended up leaning more towards a greyish blue if something. (I'll show what it would look irl as a funfact, since I found a pic on pinterest that looked pretty similar!) I also got the longer skirt recently but I must say I like the short one better. My game is currently on fall (almost winter) so I decided to keep the long one on for now. Btw, I've realised the eyes look blue as well, they're supposed to be grey... Is this a sign that I'm going blind? lol Btw my current icon is supposed to be her too!

With that out of the way, let's begin! (Beware, long post ahead!)

(Little note, when I say "lore-wise" I mean my own lore, it doesn't necessarily have to be accurate to the canon in-game lore!)

Introduction:

Since I wanted for my main farmer to be based on me, I decided to name her Luna. "Luna" means "moon", it's like my signature thing. I love everything universe/galaxy/moon/stars related. On the other side, it sounds like a witchy name so I felt it would fit too. (I hate my irl name so that one wasn't an option.)

Spring 18

Keeping in mind that she's supposed to look like me, and giving you the earlier pic as an example, let's say she's pale and short, with grey eyes and short curly hair that she dyes black (and pressumably straightens just by brushing it), with a round face that a certain guy likes to compare with the full moon (lore-wise, lmao)

I'd say the witch hat, *insert the IF I HAD ONE meme*, but since I haven't gotten that one yet, I'm not sure. Let's say the blue bow for now!

It's supposed to be a mix between blue, dark, cold and earthy tones with witchy and cottagecore vibes, somehow? I wouldn't know how to put it into words tbh

I'm not sure yet, I'll think about it!

I'll say a lot of rock and similar (but not the hardcore one), pop and maybe a little bit of kpop. Once again, based on me lol, although my irl playlist does have a lot of kpop.

Drawing, reading, writing, gaming, listening to music, things you can pretty much do on your own. Oh, and bothering the Wizard >:3

I'd say laying on the bed while petting her (ghost) cat, thinking back to the social interactions she might have gone through that day, feeling anxious or embarrassed for most of them or shy if they involve a certain guy... But her cat won't hesitate to make her calm down, to feel at peace, trying to protect her from the bad thoughts.

I'm not good at cooking (I don't know how to do anything at all, sad lmao) so she isn't either. I haven't gotten that far on the cooking part of the game though, I do know I've already unlocked a lot of recipes but I've barely checked them, oops. I'd say cookies or pancakes!

Rainy! You don't have to water the crops nor the pet's bowl and if you struggle like me when it comes to remember about doing so, it's really helpful. However, just like I do irl, I HATE the thunders and lightnings.

Fall!

Dance of the Moonlight Jellies and Spirit's Eve

I think it's foraging. I feel like that's the easier one out of them all.

An artist or a writer

That's a hard one because I'd always say "at home" but since the in-game home doesn't look good yet I wouldn't know. Let's say the Wizard's tower or Marnie's ranch

Farm Life:

Chaos. Chaos everywhere. I'm about to finish year 2 but it still looks pretty basic. I recently tried to get rid of all the wood and rocks laying on the ground, as well as a lot of trees so it's not good yet. Going back to her aesthetic, I guess I'll try to follow the dark cottagecore witch theme.

The grey and white cat, his name is Yuki (as in "winter") and lore-wise he's supposed to be grandpa's wild late cat (he didn't really own him), poor boy passed away a little bit after grandpa did, waiting for him to come back since he didn't really know he couldn't, still waiting to this day... But he's gotten really attached to Luna, feeling a stronger connection with her than the one he felt with grandpa.

Once again, Yuki. I don't even want to get any more pets for her, he's really special to me. However, I'd love to get a black cat since those are my favorite type, but I'd still have to think about how that could fit lore-wise.

If by cabin we mean the extra houses, yes but no. One of them is currently my storage room, really basic. I think the other one still has the starting decor. I struggle with getting money lol. (I hate that you can't pick up the presents though)

Not sure!

...I haven't gotten to grow any of those yet :'D

I can't tell if I've already gotten any of these besides the first two, but I'll say the ornamental fan, dried starfish, elvish jewelry and strange doll.

Midnight carp and ghostfish

 I've recently gotten new swords, I can't remember which one I'm currently using though

 Let's beging with the ones I ABSOLUTELY HATE so far, the stupid serpents are number 1, they were the reason I "died" most of the times on the Skull Cavern. The other one so far would be the slimes. As for the one I like... I'll say mummies because they seem to drop a lot of cool stuff AND CLOTH! And aesthetic/lore wise so far, I'll say ghosts :D

If that means they won't be aggressive nor attack anyone anymore (including animals) I think she would. I'd say bats, skeletons, ghosts and those shadow guys.

Relationships Platonic and Romantic:

Ignoring that certain guy, sweet Evelyn (I love her, I see her as both mine and Luna's pixel grandma, I guess she just reminds me of my irl one somehow), Krobus lore-wise but he's still scared of me in-game, the Wizard (but he still hates me, although that's kinda canon lore-wise too lmao) and maybe Linus, I don't usually interact with him that much but I love him, his lore-wise story gets somehow deeper so that adds to my love for him.

Maybe Maru, Harvey, Jas and Marnie? Abigail's hearts are pretty high too but there's a reason behind that (she's Luna's ex), although they aren't as close as they used to be anymore. I'm still trying to level up everyone's but specially those I like the most, bad thing is I'm usually doing my own thing so I forget about that.

Alex for the win. He recently told me something about how you need to tan on the beach, otherwise I'll end up looking like milk (I'M ALREADY PALE AS FUCK WITH A SUN ALLERGY AND SENSITIVE SKIN ALEX), to follow up by saying how much he'd like to see me on a swimsuit. He didn't even know my name earlier today. I LOVE to check the trash cans while he's around <3 Besides him, I'll say Clint and Lewis. I almost died yesterday because of the underwear monster btw

Well, well, well (I say while looking at that well I made Robin build for me on my first days just to use it twice since)... I fell in love with Abigail a few years ago while watching a gameplay of Stardew Valley (for the first time) from an art youtuber I love. You could say it was love at first sight. I used to love her, I loved looking at fanart of her too. But Tumblr made me fall in love with Shane. I'll mention (but not tag) the main reason I fell for him, being this artist who happens to love both him and making comics about him and her farmer. I haven't been able to stop the obsession for him ever since *sigh* Tumblr and Pinterest are dangerous places, kids

For Abigail, she's a lot of things I like. From witchy stuff, to gothic, to hair-dye, videogames, amethysts, SHE OWNS A GUINEA PIG, she's weird like me (I love women too lmao)... For Shane, I wouldn't know. It's a mix of things I've gotten to love about him from each piece of fanart I've seen for the most part. As a fun fact, going back to that gameplay I was talking about, the youtuber hated him because he was really mean to her so I still hated him too even when I first started to play the game, like 2 years ago. However, I feel like I/Luna was attracted to her on a more aesthetic/superficial level but I think it's different with Shane. (ignoring the fact that all of them are pixels) I genuinely care about him, I want him to get healthy, to feel and get better (for him to begin with, for Marnie and specially Jas as well), to learn that even if he thinks no one does, there's people who deeply love and care about him, that he deserves happiness too. That he- *sigh* Okay, I'll stop now, this is getting too long of a reply.

Not yet!

Not yet!

For the Player:

I think this is a really common one among Stardew Valley fans, but Sandy. Just look at her. I get why Emily loves her.

I don't know tbh, I'd have to look it up or something, but I must say I actually get sad whenever the music stops playing on its own :(

Hmm... There are probably a few, but there's one I recently got while playing today. I'm not sure if this one is only on the spanish version or not but Vincent told me that I'm not as boring as other adults (although I totally am, but still) :'3 Oh! The one you get from Evelyn and George on the jellyfish event too! I recently saw a fanart on pinterest that almost made me tear up.

Spoilers! Emily's dressing-up thingie (I honestly thought punk Shane was just a random thing/meme though! omg!!). Shane's 2, first-7 and 8 heart event maybe. There are more but I have memory issues so I'd have to look it up as well.

Shane's 6 heart event for the win. His 4 heart event too. Emily's 6 heart event so far as well, don't ask me on that one though :) There might be more, but once again, I'm bad at remembering stuff :'D

Krobus plushie! I'd say the junimos too but I think that's actually a thing. Maybe a WIzard's journal too? Like, both a empty notebook type with his aesthetic and something like either the Gravity Falls or Star vs The Forces of Evil one (there's apparently another one with spells too just like in the show though??), talking about his wizard life, the magical languages he's learn (with its actual alphabet for you to have fun with it just like in the Geronimo Stilton fantasy kingdom series!, monsters, etc.

I think that's it?? I didn't expect to write THAT much to be fair so I apologize for it. It was really fun to come up with each reply though, thank you so much to @missrandomdreamer for making this little Stardew Valley quiz, I hope this was what you expected when you made it, some of my replies aren't that good so I apologize again.

I hope this helps a little to get to know both me and my main farmer, I'm not very active since I have a lot of blogs to manage (which actually overwhelms me and makes me go on hiatus most of the time, among other reasons tbh) but I hope I can find my little place on this amazing Tumblr Stardew Valley community at some point! I plan on writting too, both little fanfics and also about Luna's story, since that was supposed to be my strong point when I first started to be active on Tumblr. I also love to read those as well so I'd like to thank all of you who create. Fanfics, fanarts, moodboards... I appreciate sooo much your little magic here, you're doing an amazing job, keep it up! <3

Stardew Valley Farmer Asks

This might have been done before, but I kind of wanted to do my own spin on it! Anyone can do it but it’s just a fun Stardew Valley Farmer Asks and or Q&A list. I want to talk about my farmer and I want to hear other people talk about their farmers and experiences in the game! <3

Introduction:

What’s your farmer’s name and what is the origin of the name?

What is your farmer’s birthday?

What do they look like?

What is their signature accessory?

What is their aesthetic?

If they had a theme song what would it be?

On music, what does their playlist look like?

What are some of their hobbies not including farming?

Similar to the previous question: what does your farmer do after a long day of work? How do they relax?

Do they have a favorite food recipe? What are their favorite foods?

Favorite type of weather?

Do they have a favorite season?

What is their favorite holiday?

 What is their specialty? (angling, foraging, combat etc.)

If they weren’t a farmer, what would they be?

What is their favorite place to be in Stardew Valley?

Farm Life:

What type of farm do they have?

What was their chosen animal (cat or dog) and what is the pet’s name?

Is there an animal that your farmer has a strong attachment to? Could be all, could be the fish in their chosen pond or aquarium any little animal. :3

Do you like to decorate your cabin? If so, what does your cabin look like?

What is their favorite crop?

What is their favorite fruit tree?

What is their favorite artifact/stone or other dug up item?

Do they have a favorite fish? Either for looks, food,  for their pond or aquarium?

 What is their weapon of choice when they have to go battle in the mines?

 What is their favorite enemy in the mines ? What is the one they hate the most?

If it was possible to tame one of the monsters in the mines would your farmer do it? And if so what would be the monster they would tame? 

Relationships Platonic and Romantic:

Whose your farmer’s best friends?

Who in the Valley is more acquainted with your farmer? Not a super close friend or an enemy but are just kind of like: someone they say hi to but don’t get super close to?

Is there someone your farmer has absolute beef with? Someone they honestly can’t stand and would probably get in a  fight with?

Who did your farmer romance? Or did they not romance anyone?

What made your farmer fall in love with said character that they romanced? Could  be in the canon game story or in your own story you write with your farmer. 

If they did marry a bachelor or bachelorette  or got Krobus as a roommate: what does a day in their life look like with them?

Did your farmer have children or adopt any? Tell us about them.

For the Player:

 Is there someone as the player that you wish was romanceable? If so, who and why?

What is your favorite song(s) in the Stardew Valley Soundtrack?

What is your favorite dialogue in Stardew Valley? 

Favorite moments in Stardew Valley?

Least Favorite moments in Stardew Valley?

What would be your dream official merch of Stardew Valley? Like what would you like to see more of or what is something you wish they made into official merch from the game? Could be a character or anything :3

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